It's the same daily routine,
the same nightly fight,
the same amount of effort
from both sides.
It's one sided struggling,
both sided acknowledgement,
neither side resolving.
It's auto love.
One connected to the other,
struggling to keep it together.
Promises to change,
to "mean it this time".
To get better.
To be better.
To want to be better.
But it's the same routine,
just flipped today,
in a different light,
with a different name,
in a different way.
It's auto love,
and there's no off switch.
"Have you answered all those
that sang you tunes from your past?
Or did you curse at them again for
reminding you of a place so impure?
Has the world once again turned on you?
And are you the only one who has
gone through such suffering?
You know you are not alone, though you enjoy
the bitterness that surrounds your longing for affection."
And as I say this all while looking in the mirror,
this reflection of mine will not admit the truth.
So I screamed at her to speak, like all the others
did to me.
And she sang me a song from my past.
And I despised her voice and every living moment of the tune.
It reminded me of mistakes and more
I tried so hard
Walking a road without an end in sight
And lost so much
So much
I wonder sometimes if it's worth it
To keep trudging this road
Sometimes I swear there's no light
To call me home
I don't know how anyone keeps going
I just want to end it all
But somehow I keep pushing forward
Bearing a million pounds of load
Nothing can make this worth it
Even fighting to the end
I hope one day I can finish this
And somehow climb this wall
But until then this ice and snow
Gravely ominously portends
And I will walk, and stagger, and crawl
Until I reach my end
Writing Prompt: Fire Drill by Kinola14, literature
Literature
Writing Prompt: Fire Drill
“Class, today we’re going to have a practice fire drill,” said Ms. Ellis, as she clicked across the room in her brand new pair of stilettos. “You should all know what to during fire drills by now, so I won’t have to quiz you. Okay?”
“Okay, Ms. Ellis,” the class chimed.
Angelica Quinn raised her hand. “Ms. Ellis, when do we have the fire drill?” she inquired.
“Hmm...hang on.” Ms. Ellis looked at her purple wristwatch. “It’ll commence in five...four...three...two...one.”
Instantly, a loud buzzing rang through the classroom and throughout the school. “